From making plans to new begins. Read Karen’s Story

"I’ve always had a vision for my life: a plan. I would go to school, get married, buy a house, and have children. This “plan” gave me focus. This “plan” kept me grounded. And when things didn’t work out exactly as I had planned, I worried. But life has a funny way teaching you that worrying about the future is useless. You are not in control and you don’t get the privilege of dictating how the plan unravels. 

A wise Mary Schmich once wrote in her column of the Chicago Tribune, “Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 PM on some idle Tuesday.” 

These words ring truer than ever. You see, a couple of months ago I found out I was pregnant. My plan was becoming a reality. I was the master of my fate. I controlled my destiny, right? My husband and I had been trying for over 2 years and my plan was coming to fruition. I was over the moon excited, full of joy and excitement. A few weeks went by: I thought of gender reveals, nurseries, baby names. Sadly, my joy was short-lived. I found out that I would be losing the baby. I felt my world was crashing down, but little did I know, God wanted me to focus on myself for awhile. 

I developed a lump in my breast and had been ignoring it because I was so focused on  the “plan.” After I lost the baby I decided to tell my doctor, and well, along came the kind of news that never crossed my worried mind. You know, the kind that will blindside you...: it’s cancer. Please understand, this story is not for pity. I’m going to fight and survive this like I’ve survived other hurdles throughout my life. 

This message is to remind you that plans were made to be changed. Life’s beauty really does lie in the unexpected. - The beauty of knowing my body better than ever before. The beauty of meeting some of the most amazing heroes in medicine. The beauty of becoming closer with my family. The beauty of never taking another moment for granted. - The bottom line: stop planning and start living."